Road to Gyaru

So I haven't updated this blog in forever and after this post I will be updatng more again. To me this is not only a blog but like a diary I can write in to get what I need to say out because sometimes I am not strong enough to say it out loud.  Lately I have had a lapse, as people who read one of my last post I use to struggle from depression and very bad social anxiety this caused me to cause harm to myself. Sometime its hard to go to the people you know flat out and tell them "Hey I use to have such bad depression, I cut myself, oh, and I think about suicide daily". It took me years to get the courage to write that last post I did but as soon as I did I felt insanely relieved. Lately I have been falling back into my old ways and I had a small lapse not bad but it opened my eyes and after I was calm I looked at my arm and realized that, that way of releasing my pain was not for me anymore.  So that is why I decided to change my blog into not only a Gyaru blog but a a blog women/girls who struggle with the same problems I do can come here to receive advice as well as give it. The next couple post will be the first post with the new blog format and it will be about the people that bring you down more than raise you up. Check back in the next day or so for the first post on Dealing with depression/ social anxiety. I will also have a post about some new circle lenses up too !!