Road to Gyaru

Why is it that my light in the tunnel is fading more each day,
Causing pain in this chest as each bit of light is lost,
Trying to tear down my newly found dreams,
while you should be the pillar supporting them,
If it were a couple years before I would of gave up on life,
I always have moments where I feel I might slip,
but then I remember the strength I've gained,
the strength you had no help in building,
the power to change my life to better it,
the determination I got from those hateful doubtful words you said,
I may not be where I want to now but you better believe I'm well on my way,
Then I will look back on these days as a necessary tool for change,
That little push to put into action my new found strength,
The strength in knowing where I am going,
while letting things fall into place,
I will look back at this time on you and not regret,
but pity you for having to hold all that hate in your heart,
I will reminisce all the good parts and forgive all the bad,
I feel deep in my soul I am on my way,
On my way to make this world a better place,
raising my light as I go on,
no more darkness peaking through,
I found the strength i'm entitled to